, or dad issues?

It was sad to hear about your relationship with your father and how you were treated while growing up. Your father obviously has some serious problems and when he drinks he can be a jerk to the people around him. I hope that one day he gets some help for himself and maybe then the two of you can have a better relationship. You shouldn't blame yourself for your father being the way that he is and I highly doubt that your uality has anything to do with your fathers behavior. As for you being a , you need to be with whatever you feel most comfortable with. You can be with a partner that is the same as yourself and have a "normal life" because for you being with another woman is normal. I do think that you should get some counseling for the fears that you have about men and being weary around them for some unknown reason.*